I’m feeling very fed up. Barbara called today. She hadn’t had a chance to really go through our files and update yet, but she said she would today and call back. Guess what? Yeah, no call back.

Also, she told us that there was overwhelming response for Savanna and that Savanna’s case worker would be deciding from the homestudies she already had. Well, okay, then, as we put in for Savanna within days of her bulletin coming out. At least we’ll be considered, right? No. Barbara says that she never sent Savanna’s worker our homestudy. Just missed it, I guess. So, we won’t even be considered for her. She’s the one we’re most excited about and we won’t be considered for her because Barbara never sent in our homestudy.

As of tomorrow, it’ll be 3 weeks since we asked Barbara to let Savanna’s case worker know that we were really, really interested in her and much longer since we indicated our original interest. To add insult to injury, Barbara didn’t even actually talk to Savanna’s case worker, just heard about this through the grape vine.

I’m so mad and frustrated. I’m sad. Who knows how many kids we’ve missed because Barbara hasn’t been on the ball. At first, we missed kids because it took her so freaken long to get our homestudy done. Now we’re missing them because she can’t be bothered to follow up with case workers. I know that’s a little unfair because she is really busy. I know she’s had to go to court more than once and has had several committee meetings (one for us) in the last several weeks. However, why didn’t our homestudy get into Savanna’s worker to begin with? It was sent to the other kids we asked about then – Elijah, for one. We inquired about them on the same day.

Between this and how many people seem to put in for kids, it makes me think that maybe we should give it up. Kids who we’re interested in aren’t lingering in the system. Or, more exactly, they're not moving out any faster because we're around. There's a lot of interest in them. I’m getting tired of all the emotional ups and downs. I feel like we’re getting nowhere. We’re at the mercy of this overburdened, disorganized system. Who’s benefiting from this?