For some of you, this may fall under too much information, but here goes anyway. I don't shave. Not anywhere. Not my legs, not my armpits, not my bikini line.
Sometimes I'll shave when the warm weather hits and keep it up through the fall. When we went on our cruise 5 years ago (wow - has it really been that long), I kept the shaving up through early November, when we went on the cruise.
I have not shaved for the summer even in a few years. Most of the time, I'm okay with this. I just don't want to spend the time on shaving and both my pits and my bikini line get rashy when I shave. Also, I tell myself, this is what a mature female's body looks like. It's normal. All the shaving to look like a prepubescent girl, now that's unnatural. Most of the time, I even believe it.
Sometimes, though, I feel self conscious about it. I have to admit that I think I look sexier shaved. Although, I can still feel the sense of "What is that about? Why does a woman shaved to look like a prepubescent look sexier? Really, that's just wrong." Back to the self conscious thing.
When I'm at the pool, I do sometimes feel like I don't look good because of the profusion of hair. I don't skip the shaving because my various bodily hair is unnoticeable, let me tell ya. For a blond, I've got some thick, dark hair in places other than my head.
However, here's the thing. We're going to Great Wolf Lodge this weekend. The last time we went, I did not shave. I thought about it and felt a little bit like people would be looking at me like I was a lunatic, but I did not shave. I felt a little self conscious, but it was alright. Other than the people I'd brought with me, who are all used to me and how I look, I didn't know anyone there anyway.
This is the crux of the issue. All the gymnastics moms will be there. They will talk. It happens. Am I okay with them talking about me and my hair? Do I want to shave to avoid that? Do I want to shave because I'm a rather competitive person and want to look better than the other moms? Or do I stick by my guns and say, with my actions, "Hey! This is what a woman looks like! Get over it!"
This is my dilemma.